Yesterday I thought I could finally write one of these. I was oh so wrong. Life has been so hard lately. Losing a friend so near and dear to me is one of the worst things I have ever went through. I lost my great grandma two years ago, I handle that so much better than what I am going through now. Unexpected death is the one that hits you the hardest. I've had to come to terms that I won't see his smiling face every morning. His french horn won't be in front of my locker. Starting senior year knowing that you won't be here was tough. I know that I will get through this; but, it's so hard to see that now. I will forever wish that I had said something to him the last time I saw him. He was sitting so lonely in a class room. I could have never seen this coming. While band rehearsal today my teacher had walked away. Knowing that no one should go through this alone, i went to her and sat with her and she talked. "All I want to do is take away all your pain. I just want to fix it all. I can't fix this. I'm a control freak and I just can't control this." My instant response was, "You cannot control what you cannot see." You would have never guessed that the terrifying call you get from the principal to say what had happened would have been this young man. He was constantly smiling, making jokes, and helping someone. He had his life all planned out. He was so excited to finally be able to go home to the place where he wanted to be. If you ever heard the song "Why" by Rascal Flatts, the song represents this situation all too well. I just wish I could have helped. I know I am not supposed to beat myself about this. How am I not? Just so everyone out there knows, you are NEVER alone. someone out there is willing to talk to you no matter the problem, or just to listen. Be patient with life. It's not worth losing everything you put into it. RIP 8/25/12
Amber I am so sorry to hear about that! It is very hard to lose someone close and dear. I know how that feels I lost my grandpa at the age of 7, he was my best friend. It was hard on me, because at the age of 7 I did not really know what dying meant. I guess I did not think that I would not see him again. So after they told me what it meant, I was very upset and confused! so I really know how you feel about losing someone close to you. After he died it was weird not seeing him every holiday or just for the heck of it. I miss him more then anything, it was very hard growing up with out a grandpa in my life. But at least you have the good memories that you had with your friend. Think of it this way even though he took his life, at least hes looking over you and with you everyday! Like I said I am very sorry about your friend though!
Amber, I lost my sister in a car accident, so I know what you are going through. It becomes easier with time, especially when it is a friend, but you'll never forget! Live life to the fullest!
Hi Amber. I completely understand where you are coming from. Unexpected death is the worst thing ever. I would not wish that on anyone. It is so painful and heart wrenching. I come from a small town where everyone knew everybody. Nothing like that had ever happened before in our town. Then one night everyone’s phones are ringing trying to figure out what happened and the worst thing that anyone could have done to themselves happened. I agree with you 100% nobody is never alone. There is always someone out there either going through the same thing or there is always someone to talk to. I understand how hard it is for you. I am terribly sorry for your loss and the family’s loss. Everyone wishes they could take a persons pain away but it's not that simple. You take the words right out of my mouth when you say be patient with life. I couldn't put it better myself. Things will pass maybe not as soon as you would like them too but they will pass. It's just the matter of waiting. That song, Why by Rascal Flatts was played at this young boy’s funeral. It was the saddest thing I have ever witnessed. But to see the whole community come together and be there for the family was absolutely amazing. I know times are tough right now but if you just think of all the good things that person did and influenced you with, it could make life a little easier I think. Hope all is well...it will get better. I promise.
Touchdown! That is how my friday nights go. My team is well not the greatest, but that is okay. We lose every game. Its the people I am with that makes it all better. Football games are when I can finally let off my steam. Let the stress out, just for it to start again as soon as i walk off the field. I am so ready for the season to be over though. The stress is getting to me. I am ready to be able to sleep Friday nights. I am the one who is blamed for everything. It gets annoying, quick. I do not want to write anymore... I want sleep! watching criminal minds, Dr. Reid is my favorite and Penelope. It's too late for this, why am trying? O= freaky people on this show. I am really getting tired of these stupid election commercials. terrible terrible grammar and stuff tonight, words words words. tomorrow is my day off! i am so excited! sleep and homework! so exciting! then my week starts on sunday. I am so sad. Oh well, money is money. I am off to bed! Good night to all!
OH MY GOODNESS IT POSTED! last night my post actually posted.. I thought i lost it and i about cried. I think i have a problem. I'm addicted to ear piercings. The thing is that it irritates my dad. My mom has to tell him that i'm eighteen and I can do what I please to my ears before I rebel.. Sadly, this is my type of rebellion. I am such a good kid. Two more piercings and I will be done for a while. I always wanted an Industrial bar. I am pretty sure that if i got an industrial bar i would cry. I went an saw Hotel Transylvania tonight. It was alright. Eh. Going to see Pitch Perfect in two hours. Then I have to wake up in the lovely morning and serve to people... ALONE! my tips! yay! two weeks of training and the trainer got to keep all of my tips... How rude is that? Oh well.. We are never ever ever ever getting back together. Dumb song stuck in my head. I swear sometimes my brain has too much caffeine. My ear hurts. This is going to be extremely fun. I'm so excited! Triple forward helix! How to kill an hour? Go through your text messages.. Too much reading for me tonight. I really should finish my homework. This is always my worst quarter because of band. Silly band. I am extremely boring. So sorry! I really need to throw my clothes into the washing machine. For future reference, never spill two cups of coffee onto your hand, it is extremely painful and you may not be able to use your hand for a while and your clothes may smell like coffee for a few weeks. Well. I am off to do a few things and start doing things. Have a great weekend =D
I don't think piercing is all that bad I have my ears pierced four times each and an industrial in one and my tregis in the other. I'd like to have a rook piercing in one but not sure whar ear. I have my tounge and my nose don't too, oh and I almost forgot my belly button. I havwe a tattoo habit, when I can afford it. one of the next ones I get is going to incorperate the sub dermal piercings, I thnk it will turn out nice. I don't believe any of this makes a person. You are who you are regaurdless of tats or holes. It took many yaers for my grandmother to see that, but she loves me the same. I think they are moments of time in your life on your skim, like a scrapbook. They only thing I recomend is that you make sure its something you can live with FOREVER. such a perment word. I also was in band up to eigth grade. I played the clarinet, and the corinet, and also the french horn, but decided not to go further with in highschool. Instead I did chore. I sang for two or three years, by then I was way more into ag, welding and machine shop. Go figure. I lkie a little bit of everything. Plus I can cook and bake, need to make some banana muffins or "muppins" acording to my four year old, because I have some ripe bananas.
Friday marked something very new to me. I was in my very first car car accident. Well more like car car car car car accident. There were five cars. It was an hour before the busses were to leave for the football game. I freaked out. Just so everyone knows no one was hurt and it was just all rear ends stupid rain. The only damage my hard butt came out with was a dent or two and two little screw marks. I must have gotten hit twice.. I really can't remember. Thankfully I learned to keep my distance because if I didn't the accident would have been worse. There were about three cars infront of me really close together. But I made it to the game on time made all the people giving me crap about being late feel guilty it was fun! We lost oh well. Saturday I totally went to kings island! I drove... What was I thinking?? I made someone else drive home. Terrible back seat driver. Anyone played just dance four?! Yep it is hilarious to watch someone play in a tiny place. Well my mom is taking my friend and I to the Tokyo steak house in Findlay. Such a yummy place! Have a great rest of the weekend!
Wow good thing no body was hurt. I have been in several bad accidents and I was the passenger every time. It hurts, and makes you never want to be in a car or on a four-wheeler again. It took many months almost years worth of thereopy to get to where I am now, but I'll prob still have to have neck surgery sometime in the future. So, you are very lucky. I hate to see peple in accidents, it really makes me cringe. Hopefully that will be your only accident. I have never been to kings island, my husband says it is so fun. I want to wait till my boys are older to be able to take them. I can not do rollarcoasters anymore, due to my accident. I was in the passenger seat in a camero and Got t-bone my side by an astro van doing fourty-five miles an hour. She blew a stop sign not a good day.
I have been pretty dead to the world lately. My bad. This week just has not been good for me. you all got to see my shining face on Tuesday, but after that it went downhill. Wednesday I got a flu shot, I hate needles. Then I scurried to get food. I paid $2.50 for a cup of hot water that contained whipped cream and peppermint stuff... it was nasty. Then I got "home", i was staying with a friend, to get ready for a job interview, a job that i did not get. and then I went to work. I left work with a severe ache in my abdominal area. I thought nothing of it, really. I was not hungry so I barely ate. I felt so bad I fell asleep an hour early. Thursday I woke up an hour late. I still did not feel good. So I called my mom describe the pain and all she told me was to come home for the day. When I got home she looked at me and she says "are you messing with me to get out of school or do you really not feel well?" I really was not kidding and I told her so. That landed me into the hospital. Where I was jabbed by needles, fingers, and ultrasound machines (No I am not pregnant). I walked out of the hospital four hours later to find out i may need surgery. Which led to friday's doctor appointment where she proceeded to tell me things I already knew and she kept calling me fat. Yes, lady, I heard you the first time. So here I am today just waiting to figure out what the hello kitty is going on.
I have been pretty dead to the world myself. I would like to take a few days off and sleep but that is not going to happen. I just got our Christmas tree up this evening. I like to do it when the kids are sleeping so they will be surprised in the morning. I even hung their stockings. It is a white pre-lighted tree with red and gold decorations this year.I was getting tired of the black and silver, and it was time for a change. I think the boys will be excited to see it in the morning. We had to move our bookcase, which is full of movies to a different wall, but we made room and it looks nice. I am so tired tonight that I cannot wait to go to bed, but there is so much to do. By the way the cats, who have never saw a christmas tree before, are really interested. looks like I may be keeping them out of it all night. Oh well.
I am legit failing this blog assignment. I am so busy! A night of studying in my hands. I'm trying to finally decide what I am doing with my life. I have managed to anger my mother with my decisions, but, it is a risk i am willing to take. I will not get any where in life if I do not try. And trying for me is to escape ohio. Maybe a big city is in my future, like Greensboro, North Carolina. I have not had an easy life and I do not plan on taking a break now. You get no where if you stop. You gain more debt that way! I finally got my second part of my helix done. It was a present to myself for not needing surgery yet. =D Yay! things like that are exciting right now. I should really be studying right now, but my brain is on overload. is it the end of the semester yet? I was told by my Public Speaking instructor that professors are advised to give a break in the learning because the students get worked up, so she schedules lesson plans and if you are not there, or if you just do not listen, you fail the exam... i am like that does not make sense, but what do I know i am not a professor and I am in every class unless I am in the hospital. I skip ends of high school classes on two hour delays because college is more important. I am a dedicated student. I cannot afford to fail. I keep telling myself one more month and then you have about a month to just breathe. FUDGE NUTS! I forgot to sign up for an ACT biscuits! there are more. That is okay. I am going to study my little brain out. Good bye world, see you all tomorrow... Maybe. REMEMBER REMEMBER THE FIFTH OF NOVEMBER! -V for Vendetta
I understand where you are coming from. My brain gets so overloaded with classes and random things that I feel like I don't know which way is up. I have math five days a week and sometimes I wish I'd get a break from it. That might accually help. I just got a tattoo on friday night of my zodiac sign. I feel like it is theropy to me. I almost feel asleep. I should have brought homework to do while I was getting my tat done. It took 5 hours and thats a long time. I think almost everyone wants to get away from thier home town. Even if it is just for a vacation or perment. I do not live in the same town I grew up in, in fact I am not even in the same state. I miss my family though, because they are so far away I do not get to see them hardly at all. This summer we are going to try and drive out. This blog assignment is really wierd to me and I sometimes forget. I really hope I don not fail it. It would make me feel like I wasted time that I could have been doing other assignments. I hope you can achieve your goals and remember you can not please everyone.
I just cannot take this anymore! My mental state failed me today. I am too stressed and too exhausted. I ended up calling off work because of stress and i did not feel well, giving up the good section. I feel like i am failing everything. I cannot handle it. This whole break, wednesday through today, i was only scheduled to have one day off, yesterday. I worked too many hours. I have school to be worried with. I feel like this essay will be the death of me. So will this blog. I'm told to calm down and think happy thoughts. I cannot think happy thoughts if these grades determine whether I pass or fail high school, whether I get to walk across that stage in june. I have another semester to try to correct it i guess. I have to do good I have to do good I have to do well? Who cares. I am ready for more sleep and to just forget about the day. But I can not do that. I have to work on this essay. Maybe do my nails some and read a book too. but other than that I must work at least some on this essay. She said I had a good start, thats good right? I hope so! I'm going to nap a little I think. Good night :p
It's okay to take a day off. Everyone needs one. You can only do so much before you crash anyways. I hope your day off made you feel better. Did you do your nails? I hope being able to take a deep breath or two really helped you out. Having a good start really does help you out, because you don't have to start all over again. That in itself is an accomplishment and you should be proud. There are people worse off then you , so I'd take a deep breath and put one foot in front of the other. Hope your better. Good luck.
you are not the only one. I feel the same way, this blog assignment is way to much when you are busy. i feel like i never have time to blog even though it is only 10 mins. But with doing this essay, still doing high school homework, working, and dancing 3 days a week is killing me! I totally understand where you are coming from amber, trust me i really do not think you are the only one who will not have exactly 50 blogs each this thursday. So do not feel alone i will be right there with you. To be honest and nothing against ms piro i just really do not understand this blog assignment, i understand it is for getting to know each other, but i feel like we did by in the classroom, not by blogging. But i do respect her wishes, i just wish it was shorter and not 50 comments and 50 blogs=/, oh well though. But goodluck amber! you can get through it
Yesterday I thought I could finally write one of these. I was oh so wrong. Life has been so hard lately. Losing a friend so near and dear to me is one of the worst things I have ever went through. I lost my great grandma two years ago, I handle that so much better than what I am going through now. Unexpected death is the one that hits you the hardest. I've had to come to terms that I won't see his smiling face every morning. His french horn won't be in front of my locker. Starting senior year knowing that you won't be here was tough. I know that I will get through this; but, it's so hard to see that now. I will forever wish that I had said something to him the last time I saw him. He was sitting so lonely in a class room. I could have never seen this coming. While band rehearsal today my teacher had walked away. Knowing that no one should go through this alone, i went to her and sat with her and she talked. "All I want to do is take away all your pain. I just want to fix it all. I can't fix this. I'm a control freak and I just can't control this." My instant response was, "You cannot control what you cannot see." You would have never guessed that the terrifying call you get from the principal to say what had happened would have been this young man. He was constantly smiling, making jokes, and helping someone. He had his life all planned out. He was so excited to finally be able to go home to the place where he wanted to be. If you ever heard the song "Why" by Rascal Flatts, the song represents this situation all too well. I just wish I could have helped. I know I am not supposed to beat myself about this. How am I not? Just so everyone out there knows, you are NEVER alone. someone out there is willing to talk to you no matter the problem, or just to listen. Be patient with life. It's not worth losing everything you put into it. RIP 8/25/12
ReplyDeleteAmber I am so sorry to hear about that! It is very hard to lose someone close and dear. I know how that feels I lost my grandpa at the age of 7, he was my best friend. It was hard on me, because at the age of 7 I did not really know what dying meant. I guess I did not think that I would not see him again. So after they told me what it meant, I was very upset and confused! so I really know how you feel about losing someone close to you. After he died it was weird not seeing him every holiday or just for the heck of it. I miss him more then anything, it was very hard growing up with out a grandpa in my life. But at least you have the good memories that you had with your friend. Think of it this way even though he took his life, at least hes looking over you and with you everyday! Like I said I am very sorry about your friend though!
DeleteAmber, I lost my sister in a car accident, so I know what you are going through. It becomes easier with time, especially when it is a friend, but you'll never forget! Live life to the fullest!
DeleteHi Amber. I completely understand where you are coming from. Unexpected death is the worst thing ever. I would not wish that on anyone. It is so painful and heart wrenching. I come from a small town where everyone knew everybody. Nothing like that had ever happened before in our town. Then one night everyone’s phones are ringing trying to figure out what happened and the worst thing that anyone could have done to themselves happened. I agree with you 100% nobody is never alone. There is always someone out there either going through the same thing or there is always someone to talk to. I understand how hard it is for you. I am terribly sorry for your loss and the family’s loss. Everyone wishes they could take a persons pain away but it's not that simple. You take the words right out of my mouth when you say be patient with life. I couldn't put it better myself. Things will pass maybe not as soon as you would like them too but they will pass. It's just the matter of waiting. That song, Why by Rascal Flatts was played at this young boy’s funeral. It was the saddest thing I have ever witnessed. But to see the whole community come together and be there for the family was absolutely amazing. I know times are tough right now but if you just think of all the good things that person did and influenced you with, it could make life a little easier I think. Hope all is well...it will get better. I promise.
ReplyDeleteTouchdown! That is how my friday nights go. My team is well not the greatest, but that is okay. We lose every game. Its the people I am with that makes it all better. Football games are when I can finally let off my steam. Let the stress out, just for it to start again as soon as i walk off the field. I am so ready for the season to be over though. The stress is getting to me. I am ready to be able to sleep Friday nights. I am the one who is blamed for everything. It gets annoying, quick. I do not want to write anymore... I want sleep! watching criminal minds, Dr. Reid is my favorite and Penelope. It's too late for this, why am trying? O= freaky people on this show. I am really getting tired of these stupid election commercials. terrible terrible grammar and stuff tonight, words words words. tomorrow is my day off! i am so excited! sleep and homework! so exciting! then my week starts on sunday. I am so sad. Oh well, money is money. I am off to bed! Good night to all!
ReplyDeleteOH MY GOODNESS IT POSTED! last night my post actually posted.. I thought i lost it and i about cried. I think i have a problem. I'm addicted to ear piercings. The thing is that it irritates my dad. My mom has to tell him that i'm eighteen and I can do what I please to my ears before I rebel.. Sadly, this is my type of rebellion. I am such a good kid. Two more piercings and I will be done for a while. I always wanted an Industrial bar. I am pretty sure that if i got an industrial bar i would cry. I went an saw Hotel Transylvania tonight. It was alright. Eh. Going to see Pitch Perfect in two hours. Then I have to wake up in the lovely morning and serve to people... ALONE! my tips! yay! two weeks of training and the trainer got to keep all of my tips... How rude is that? Oh well.. We are never ever ever ever getting back together. Dumb song stuck in my head. I swear sometimes my brain has too much caffeine. My ear hurts. This is going to be extremely fun. I'm so excited! Triple forward helix! How to kill an hour? Go through your text messages.. Too much reading for me tonight. I really should finish my homework. This is always my worst quarter because of band. Silly band. I am extremely boring. So sorry! I really need to throw my clothes into the washing machine. For future reference, never spill two cups of coffee onto your hand, it is extremely painful and you may not be able to use your hand for a while and your clothes may smell like coffee for a few weeks. Well. I am off to do a few things and start doing things. Have a great weekend =D
ReplyDeleteI don't think piercing is all that bad I have my ears pierced four times each and an industrial in one and my tregis in the other. I'd like to have a rook piercing in one but not sure whar ear. I have my tounge and my nose don't too, oh and I almost forgot my belly button. I havwe a tattoo habit, when I can afford it. one of the next ones I get is going to incorperate the sub dermal piercings, I thnk it will turn out nice. I don't believe any of this makes a person. You are who you are regaurdless of tats or holes. It took many yaers for my grandmother to see that, but she loves me the same. I think they are moments of time in your life on your skim, like a scrapbook. They only thing I recomend is that you make sure its something you can live with FOREVER. such a perment word. I also was in band up to eigth grade. I played the clarinet, and the corinet, and also the french horn, but decided not to go further with in highschool. Instead I did chore. I sang for two or three years, by then I was way more into ag, welding and machine shop. Go figure. I lkie a little bit of everything. Plus I can cook and bake, need to make some banana muffins or "muppins" acording to my four year old, because I have some ripe bananas.
ReplyDeleteFriday marked something very new to me. I was in my very first car car accident. Well more like car car car car car accident. There were five cars. It was an hour before the busses were to leave for the football game. I freaked out. Just so everyone knows no one was hurt and it was just all rear ends stupid rain. The only damage my hard butt came out with was a dent or two and two little screw marks. I must have gotten hit twice.. I really can't remember. Thankfully I learned to keep my distance because if I didn't the accident would have been worse. There were about three cars infront of me really close together. But I made it to the game on time made all the people giving me crap about being late feel guilty it was fun! We lost oh well. Saturday I totally went to kings island! I drove... What was I thinking?? I made someone else drive home. Terrible back seat driver. Anyone played just dance four?! Yep it is hilarious to watch someone play in a tiny place. Well my mom is taking my friend and I to the Tokyo steak house in Findlay. Such a yummy place! Have a great rest of the weekend!
ReplyDeleteWow good thing no body was hurt. I have been in several bad accidents and I was the passenger every time. It hurts, and makes you never want to be in a car or on a four-wheeler again. It took many months almost years worth of thereopy to get to where I am now, but I'll prob still have to have neck surgery sometime in the future. So, you are very lucky. I hate to see peple in accidents, it really makes me cringe. Hopefully that will be your only accident. I have never been to kings island, my husband says it is so fun. I want to wait till my boys are older to be able to take them. I can not do rollarcoasters anymore, due to my accident. I was in the passenger seat in a camero and Got t-bone my side by an astro van doing fourty-five miles an hour. She blew a stop sign not a good day.
DeleteI have been pretty dead to the world lately. My bad. This week just has not been good for me. you all got to see my shining face on Tuesday, but after that it went downhill. Wednesday I got a flu shot, I hate needles. Then I scurried to get food. I paid $2.50 for a cup of hot water that contained whipped cream and peppermint stuff... it was nasty. Then I got "home", i was staying with a friend, to get ready for a job interview, a job that i did not get. and then I went to work. I left work with a severe ache in my abdominal area. I thought nothing of it, really. I was not hungry so I barely ate. I felt so bad I fell asleep an hour early. Thursday I woke up an hour late. I still did not feel good. So I called my mom describe the pain and all she told me was to come home for the day. When I got home she looked at me and she says "are you messing with me to get out of school or do you really not feel well?" I really was not kidding and I told her so. That landed me into the hospital. Where I was jabbed by needles, fingers, and ultrasound machines (No I am not pregnant). I walked out of the hospital four hours later to find out i may need surgery. Which led to friday's doctor appointment where she proceeded to tell me things I already knew and she kept calling me fat. Yes, lady, I heard you the first time. So here I am today just waiting to figure out what the hello kitty is going on.
ReplyDeleteI have been pretty dead to the world myself. I would like to take a few days off and sleep but that is not going to happen. I just got our Christmas tree up this evening. I like to do it when the kids are sleeping so they will be surprised in the morning. I even hung their stockings. It is a white pre-lighted tree with red and gold decorations this year.I was getting tired of the black and silver, and it was time for a change. I think the boys will be excited to see it in the morning. We had to move our bookcase, which is full of movies to a different wall, but we made room and it looks nice. I am so tired tonight that I cannot wait to go to bed, but there is so much to do. By the way the cats, who have never saw a christmas tree before, are really interested. looks like I may be keeping them out of it all night. Oh well.
DeleteI am legit failing this blog assignment. I am so busy! A night of studying in my hands. I'm trying to finally decide what I am doing with my life. I have managed to anger my mother with my decisions, but, it is a risk i am willing to take. I will not get any where in life if I do not try. And trying for me is to escape ohio. Maybe a big city is in my future, like Greensboro, North Carolina. I have not had an easy life and I do not plan on taking a break now. You get no where if you stop. You gain more debt that way! I finally got my second part of my helix done. It was a present to myself for not needing surgery yet. =D Yay! things like that are exciting right now. I should really be studying right now, but my brain is on overload. is it the end of the semester yet? I was told by my Public Speaking instructor that professors are advised to give a break in the learning because the students get worked up, so she schedules lesson plans and if you are not there, or if you just do not listen, you fail the exam... i am like that does not make sense, but what do I know i am not a professor and I am in every class unless I am in the hospital. I skip ends of high school classes on two hour delays because college is more important. I am a dedicated student. I cannot afford to fail. I keep telling myself one more month and then you have about a month to just breathe. FUDGE NUTS! I forgot to sign up for an ACT biscuits! there are more. That is okay. I am going to study my little brain out. Good bye world, see you all tomorrow... Maybe. REMEMBER REMEMBER THE FIFTH OF NOVEMBER! -V for Vendetta
ReplyDeleteI understand where you are coming from. My brain gets so overloaded with classes and random things that I feel like I don't know which way is up. I have math five days a week and sometimes I wish I'd get a break from it. That might accually help. I just got a tattoo on friday night of my zodiac sign. I feel like it is theropy to me. I almost feel asleep. I should have brought homework to do while I was getting my tat done. It took 5 hours and thats a long time. I think almost everyone wants to get away from thier home town. Even if it is just for a vacation or perment. I do not live in the same town I grew up in, in fact I am not even in the same state. I miss my family though, because they are so far away I do not get to see them hardly at all. This summer we are going to try and drive out. This blog assignment is really wierd to me and I sometimes forget. I really hope I don not fail it. It would make me feel like I wasted time that I could have been doing other assignments. I hope you can achieve your goals and remember you can not please everyone.
ReplyDeleteI just cannot take this anymore! My mental state failed me today. I am too stressed and too exhausted. I ended up calling off work because of stress and i did not feel well, giving up the good section. I feel like i am failing everything. I cannot handle it. This whole break, wednesday through today, i was only scheduled to have one day off, yesterday. I worked too many hours. I have school to be worried with. I feel like this essay will be the death of me. So will this blog. I'm told to calm down and think happy thoughts. I cannot think happy thoughts if these grades determine whether I pass or fail high school, whether I get to walk across that stage in june. I have another semester to try to correct it i guess. I have to do good I have to do good I have to do well? Who cares. I am ready for more sleep and to just forget about the day. But I can not do that. I have to work on this essay. Maybe do my nails some and read a book too. but other than that I must work at least some on this essay. She said I had a good start, thats good right? I hope so! I'm going to nap a little I think. Good night :p
ReplyDeleteIt's okay to take a day off. Everyone needs one. You can only do so much before you crash anyways. I hope your day off made you feel better. Did you do your nails? I hope being able to take a deep breath or two really helped you out. Having a good start really does help you out, because you don't have to start all over again. That in itself is an accomplishment and you should be proud. There are people worse off then you , so I'd take a deep breath and put one foot in front of the other. Hope your better. Good luck.
Deleteyou are not the only one. I feel the same way, this blog assignment is way to much when you are busy. i feel like i never have time to blog even though it is only 10 mins. But with doing this essay, still doing high school homework, working, and dancing 3 days a week is killing me! I totally understand where you are coming from amber, trust me i really do not think you are the only one who will not have exactly 50 blogs each this thursday. So do not feel alone i will be right there with you. To be honest and nothing against ms piro i just really do not understand this blog assignment, i understand it is for getting to know each other, but i feel like we did by in the classroom, not by blogging. But i do respect her wishes, i just wish it was shorter and not 50 comments and 50 blogs=/, oh well though. But goodluck amber! you can get through it
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